Monday, September 10, 2007

Regrets, decisions, pride

Turtleheart tagged me for a new meme Nio at Solidly Average started. It’s about moments we regret, decisions we’ve made, and moments of pride.

Here are the rules:

  1. Having children/getting married doesn’t count, nor do their accomplishments/non-accomplishments. This is about *you* and *your* choices, not about your children, nor your spouse.
  2. Link back to this post
  3. Be honest

"Regrets, I've had a few
But then again, too few to mention..."
Of course I have (had) regrets, but at the moment of decision I did what I thought best. Sometimes that turns out to be wrong. I accept that (and admit it) and try to move on. Regrets are too late most of the time. If I can do something to make it up, I'll try though.
Having said that... I regret the pain, worries and troubles I caused for Ron, my family and friends. I don't feel guilty anymore, but I still regret it. I've told them, it's okay.

"You gotta do it gotta do it gotta do it all alone
No one else will do it for you
You're on your own
Do it"
After years of having eating disorders and trying every treatment in the book, I tried to accept the fact that I'd be chronically eating disordered for the rest of my life. It was a very depressing period. Then suddenly one day I said: "NO!! I don't want it to be chronical! I'm going to do something about it, now!" It cost me blood, sweat and (many) tears, but it was the best decision I ever made for myself. I've always had support around me, but this was something I had to figure out all by myself. It still took me some time to get there, but I did it!

"And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive"
I'm proud of my overall positive outlook on life. I'm a survivor, I'm strong. In everything I try to see something positive. It seems like a contradiction: I'm using anti-depressants, but in my heart I'm an optimist. All the troubles and difficulties I have encountered and still do, somewhere deep within I know I'll be allright. That has helped me through very hard times and ordeals. It helps me to cope with my health problems too.

Normally I don't tag specific persons, but I'll make an exception this time.
I'd like to read the regrets, decisions & pride of:


  1. I like this meme...I might do it for fun anyway and tag myself. :)

  2. Consider yourself tagged, Midas! :-)

  3. I know ED's are usually a lifelong, uphill battle; sounds like you did some awesome work for yourself!

    Your optimism shows in your blogging; I think it's one of the reasons I like your blog-- you share such joy about life!

  4. Not only did I enjoy reading your own entry but I enjoyed writing mine as well.

    I have known a few people in my life for whom ED were a daily struggle. Your honesty about your own fight is amazing!

    Mine is up, late I know.


    Mama Kelly

  5. Scary one, very revealing: have to think about it for a bit.


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