The new year helped me to make a new start in eating. I finally succeeded in breaching the vicious circle, the binging... It is hard, very hard. I'm glad I did it though, it was about time to get a grip on myself!
I stepped on the scales last week, I'm back to 100++ kg... I expected that, I knew before I saw the figures. I can't blame anyone but myself. I don't want to linger on blaming myself. I know it so well and it doesn't work.
This new start is different new start than others in the past. I'm not setting any unreachable goals, I don't stop eating, I'm not putting myself on a killer diet. This time I'm doing it the right way. Start eating normally, change habits, stop fooling myself. So far it's going okay. Not perfect, but okay. That's good enough.
Last Thursday I went with Ron to his psychiatrist. She's good. I talked freely and told her about my feelings. She knows enough about eating disorders not to make the classic therapist mistakes, what a relief! She was honest enough to say that she doesn't know whether she can help me. That's fine. If she's willing to give it a try, so am I. This thursday is the next appointment.
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So I wrote a long comment and pushed the wrong button. Aaargh. Thanks, again, for you lovely card! It can serve for next years Xmas too, since Australia Post did deliver it only 2 days ago.
ReplyDeleteStruggling with the eating disorder too. We're trying to eat healthily and, more important and hard, to not overeat. Even the skinny hubby managed to put on 2 kilo's in the wrong place, so his trousers did not fit anymore. It is working quite alright, so far, but the thoughts in my head are not helpful at all. Sigh. Counsellor later today, hope she is good with depression and eating disorders. Good luck to you!
I hear ya! I'm diabetic and can't stick to a diet at all. I binge too with disatrous effects on my health and then the guilt.
ReplyDeleteBest of luck.
Good luck!! I know exactly how you feel. I'm not so much a binge eater, but eat the wrong things. I have been trying to lose weight for about 5 yrs now.
ReplyDeleteI've joined weight watchers & it seems to be going ok... only time will tell!
Good idea Tink! Killer diets are never a good idea, but it is not easy keeping a normal diet for months or years... Good luck, I know you can do it (and you do too, although you tend to forget!)
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ReplyDeleteI really like the pictures of your cats and dogs together.
I have allways wondered why most diets fail for those who follows?
ReplyDeleteIs it because the diets is considered only to last for a periode, like a medicine? I don't know.
I'm 189 cm high and weigh around 89-93 kg depending on activity and what I eat. Instead of cakes and sweets I prefer fruits, simply because I love the freshness.
Wish you good luck as a "looser"
I hope it's going well for you, Tink! I'm glad you found a listener who was a straight talker.
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